It's been long ago since my last post. Don't know being lazy or just busy. Blogging is a very emotional kinda thing for me, so most of the time when i have a very serious thought or the very sentimental kind of moment will urged me to blog.
So yes, i am blogging now. Wanted to update my blog many many times, but just seems so busy to do it especially when i am in KL. Wanted to blog my feeling on going to leave my home for a very long period and live in NL alone when Jan abroad; Wanted to blog my journey of 2008 and the experiences; Wanted to blog my thought in the next stage of life: Wanted to blog the readiness of bringing in a new life after the incident; Wanted to blog how ashamed i feel when Malaysia's politic discussion with foreigners; Wanted to blog my future in NL; Wanted to blog what i wish the most to do in the coming year, study or work: Wanted to blog the feeling of betrayed and revenge; Wanted to blog a lot a lot of things.. But after i read the blog of one of the rock climber friend of mine... here's my thought:-
He was (perhaps still is) the best rock climber in the rock climbing center that i went; He was a very good rafting leader; He was very good in almost all kind of extreme and adventurous games; He was very good in car racing yet you feel safe when sitting next to him; He was quiet but yet a good observer as well as listener; He was very helpful; He was ambitious; And he speaks and writes good english although he didn't study much. He was the climber that i was closest with during the rock climbing period.
He disappeared all in a sudden sometimes ago and when the moment i got his news again was the time my msn pop up the message which shown he is online as well as the title written something very negative by him. He had self-depression! Very coincidentally i was back in KL that time yet going to leave again very very soon. Worry was the first respond in me. I called him but never answer or reply my call. So i sms-ed him, and there his reply, but when ask for meet up, he went MIA again. Until one time we chat very long in msn and he got persuaded by me to meet me up. We had very long chat and immediately the next day he told me he had make the appointment with another psychiatric before i manage to help him to contact the psychiatric i known. He said because he can't wait any longer to let the emotion to depressed him anymore. After some time he told me he is going back to his parents, his business is in the planning in re-open, and his sister is helping him in his business. I was very very happy from the deep inside of my heart to see the improvement in him.
Not long ago, i saw his name is online in my msn list again and i knew he met an accident and should be quite serious. Everything guessed by me though. I didn't bother to ask him, because i was busy traveling as well as busy for nothing i believe. Till just now i read his blog, i can feel he is in very very deep confusion on his own again. He is in self-depression again. Not sure did it ever cured, but i know he is fighting very hard to being cured and get out from the depression. I don't know what else i can do to help him, i wish i can help him to be all happy like a normal human. But i don't know how.
Now i wonder, those people whom ended up their life because of some very stupid reasons but yet they had very normal and healthy life gifted by God, why never understand the meaning of appreciation? Whereas there are so many people whom are not as lucky and fortunate as them wanted to cherish their life and unable to live like a normal human being, yet they are fighting so hard against it and never give up.
I sincerely wish this friend (if you are reading it, you know who you are), never give up and keep fighting! I believe in you that you know how to appreciate your live. Do remember, you are not alone. You have all your friends included me and family by you! I know there is nothing i can help and you are the only one to help yourself, but I do have a pair of ears as well as a pair of eyes always there for you to support. I am not a religious type of person, but still..... may God bless you!
Monday, 9 February 2009
Thursday, 3 July 2008
Lecturing life
Already the 3rd week teaching in the college. My PR student are lovely and i really love them. Looking at them, allowed me to recall all my happy moments during school time. Especially my foundation year. Energetic, happy, young, cheering, etc etc. I really love to be around with them! 
Yesterday college asked me to teach a special class with "one day mandarin". 3 classes student combined together as well as their English lecturers. The class was around 50 people. Took me a sleepless night (actually think of what to teach in the class make me cannot sleep) to plan what to teach. And the coordinator specifically "ask" me to wear formally to the class because there will be a photographer of a magazine to take picture during the class.
During the class, as expected the photographer was there, full of student and teachers, and can imagine the class is real big and i have to actually "shout" during the class in order to let everyone able to hear me. After the class, a lot of the student wanted to take picture with me and then there was a banner in the class which i didn't notice in the entire class what is written in the banner. So class, pictures, this that. And there the end of the class and chatting with the rest of the english lectures about the education system of Indonesia. Then suddenly she asked me about my master degree. I got surprised how she know, or maybe the college told her. Then she pointed at the banner, there i realized.. the banner was for ME!
My name was there, "something teaching mandarin, english... Mrs. Meng Hwee, Chan (i haven't married.. hello?? ) , then master degree in business and from Australia..." More or less like that.
Wow.. that fully shocked me! Too bad no picture taken with my phone and didn't bring camera (never expect that). The pictures all with other lecturer's phone and she is off on Thursday. So i can only get after i back from Malaysia. Told my mum about it and we both also wonder what is so special about ME?? Even my man has the same curiosity too.. Finally we guess.. maybe there is just too limited master degree holder in here.
FYI, it is very expensive for them to travel out of Indonesia. Because they have to fly to Jakarta to transit; and by flying to Jakarta that will cost them the same price as flying from Kuala Lumpur to Jakarta. And there is no master degree course available in Banjarmasin.
Anyway, it was a cool day!
This morning class was the "board game" for my student, AKA big assignment day. They have to create a board game with question cards (in mandarin) and swap with other team to play it. Ability to answer the questions going to determine their final score for this assignment. It was fun and they really have to learn it by heart. The outcome beyond my expectation and a few of my top student in the class really did it very well. Without the pinyin, still can do it perfectly. Awesome! :D What to do? My student!! :D Proud of them!
Yesterday college asked me to teach a special class with "one day mandarin". 3 classes student combined together as well as their English lecturers. The class was around 50 people. Took me a sleepless night (actually think of what to teach in the class make me cannot sleep) to plan what to teach. And the coordinator specifically "ask" me to wear formally to the class because there will be a photographer of a magazine to take picture during the class.
During the class, as expected the photographer was there, full of student and teachers, and can imagine the class is real big and i have to actually "shout" during the class in order to let everyone able to hear me. After the class, a lot of the student wanted to take picture with me and then there was a banner in the class which i didn't notice in the entire class what is written in the banner. So class, pictures, this that. And there the end of the class and chatting with the rest of the english lectures about the education system of Indonesia. Then suddenly she asked me about my master degree. I got surprised how she know, or maybe the college told her. Then she pointed at the banner, there i realized.. the banner was for ME!
My name was there, "something teaching mandarin, english... Mrs. Meng Hwee, Chan (i haven't married.. hello?? ) , then master degree in business and from Australia..." More or less like that.
Wow.. that fully shocked me! Too bad no picture taken with my phone and didn't bring camera (never expect that). The pictures all with other lecturer's phone and she is off on Thursday. So i can only get after i back from Malaysia. Told my mum about it and we both also wonder what is so special about ME?? Even my man has the same curiosity too.. Finally we guess.. maybe there is just too limited master degree holder in here.
FYI, it is very expensive for them to travel out of Indonesia. Because they have to fly to Jakarta to transit; and by flying to Jakarta that will cost them the same price as flying from Kuala Lumpur to Jakarta. And there is no master degree course available in Banjarmasin.
Anyway, it was a cool day!
This morning class was the "board game" for my student, AKA big assignment day. They have to create a board game with question cards (in mandarin) and swap with other team to play it. Ability to answer the questions going to determine their final score for this assignment. It was fun and they really have to learn it by heart. The outcome beyond my expectation and a few of my top student in the class really did it very well. Without the pinyin, still can do it perfectly. Awesome! :D What to do? My student!! :D Proud of them!
Tuesday, 1 July 2008
Direction
Have the thought to reside in Holland after this Banjarmasin project instead of continuing the family contract with his company. Reason? Maybe we just need plenty of holidays?
Is that really wise to stay in Holland? Can i handle it alone there while he works abroad? There are too much of questions in my mind now. What if i couldn't get a job? What if i couldn't handle with everywhere filled with dutch? What if i couldn't take it for living by myself, alone? What if i miss home? What if... what if...
But everyone can do it, i should able to do it too right? I don't know! I have too many doubts and questions in my mind lately. My very own self, what i want, where i want, how i want. Then my relationship, what he want, when he want, and how he want.
I am lost i think! I don't even know how to gather everything in my mind to express through words. But the only thing in my mind now is my travel planning.
5/7 - 7/7 @ Singapore
7/7 - 14/7 @ Kuala Lumpur
23/7 - 29/7 @ Jakarta, Bandung and mum's visit to Banjarmasin
21/8 - 3/9 @ Holland
11/9 @ Kuala Lumpur
17/9 - 10/10 -> Quinten and Anita visiting in Asia
and i need more...........
I am so sucks now.. I am just having too much of time to think of crap? Or am i just.. i don't know what
Is that really wise to stay in Holland? Can i handle it alone there while he works abroad? There are too much of questions in my mind now. What if i couldn't get a job? What if i couldn't handle with everywhere filled with dutch? What if i couldn't take it for living by myself, alone? What if i miss home? What if... what if...
But everyone can do it, i should able to do it too right? I don't know! I have too many doubts and questions in my mind lately. My very own self, what i want, where i want, how i want. Then my relationship, what he want, when he want, and how he want.
I am lost i think! I don't even know how to gather everything in my mind to express through words. But the only thing in my mind now is my travel planning.
5/7 - 7/7 @ Singapore
7/7 - 14/7 @ Kuala Lumpur
23/7 - 29/7 @ Jakarta, Bandung and mum's visit to Banjarmasin
21/8 - 3/9 @ Holland
11/9 @ Kuala Lumpur
17/9 - 10/10 -> Quinten and Anita visiting in Asia
and i need more...........
I am so sucks now.. I am just having too much of time to think of crap? Or am i just.. i don't know what
Thursday, 19 June 2008
3rd week in Banjarmasin
Been here 3 weeks already and few more days will be officially one month in Banjarmasin. As promised there will be update about life in here and it seems didn't really do much!
Was busy during the 2nd week here after spending one full week in hotel. 2nd week was the week that we finally moved into our house in here. House look nice, big, grand, elite. But the construction work... no comment! If i have to pay so much for a house especially in here, my expectation will be almost perfect work by them. Too bad it is not at all. Maybe Sunway SPK work is too good if being compared. The house floor is not even as in the water flowing i concerned. The water pressure in the master bedroom is extremely low, although there is a bath tub, but when i didn't use the bath tub, basically i have to use another bathroom to shower. Else will be standing too long while just to clean up my hair! Shower can be something tiring when you have the extreme low pressure of water! ;) I can easily list down 20 things to complain about this house!
After all the busy from furnishing the house, this that. I got fully bored with the life in here especially during last week. Without internet for a few days as the cable is not install in this area, YET, (thank god can use the 3G internet access with the mobile modem, but expensive though.) and newly in here, knowing nothing! Awful!
I just got my maid finally(after so long searching in INDONESIA for INDONESIAN maid, hilarious!), and.. i got my job too! :D I am very happy with it. Today was the first day, first class, first teaching. I teach Mandarin in a private college for the PR student. Lovely students with all together 13 in the class. Basically the class mostly conducted in English. Their level just not that bad, impressive! Hope can have more subjects to teach in the coming time.
About my maid, she is divorcing with her husband currently, that's why needed a job. And of course we offered higher than market price for her as we really needed a maid desperately! Everyday she will bring her 4 years old daughter along to work. It is alright for me as the house is just too big for me while he is working. Think working for me considered pretty lucky or not? Morning come in 10am, (i only up by 10am if no class), then home when work all finished (only sweeping, mopping, wiping for everyday job, the rest just randomly), lunch included and Sunday is off day.
Saturday will be barbeque party in my house! Wow.. Can't wait for it. All his colleagues is coming over, finally can fully utilize our garden in the house. Been preparing this for almost a week. Have to think of how to marinade all the meats, seafoods; then starters, deserts, etc. Another drinking night i think, after last week Japanese dinner with so many bottles wine down and then clubbing after. I got real sucks morning the day after! The clubbing here is good actually. Can be compared with KL's!
Come back to myself. Happy that my mum is coming by the end of July. I will meet her up in Jakarta then we go shopping in Bandung and now since Vi cannot make the trip, my mum will come to my house n stay over! I know she wanted to come so much to see my lifestyle here. Can't wait for the Bandung shopping spree! :D
I feel i am so fully grown now. Have to take care for a house, besides the cleanliness, his laundry, all working shirts nicely ironed, i have to think of what to cook for dinner everyday. From morning have to search for recipes in internet, recipe book in order to cook something different everyday. And then have to prepare my groceries shopping list, what to buy, what i wan to cook this week, what is going to finish at home, and blah blah blah. As he said, a good wifey will only need to do groceries shopping once a week. So i want to be that! ;) Of course, keeping track how much i spent in groceries every time! So housewife me now! Finally can understand how's the feeling for handling a family. Fully know how tough my mum used to take care of a family now! Thank you Mum!
I AM GOING BACK TO KL in 2 weeks time! Counting down the day every night. I miss everyone and everything in KL so much! And, also going back to Holland after 2 months! I miss everyone and everything in Holland too. My other home huh.
Will try to post some pictures taken during the Japanese dinner (have to ask from Jan's colleague) and hope this weekend party will get some pictures, and of course pictures with my student!
Was busy during the 2nd week here after spending one full week in hotel. 2nd week was the week that we finally moved into our house in here. House look nice, big, grand, elite. But the construction work... no comment! If i have to pay so much for a house especially in here, my expectation will be almost perfect work by them. Too bad it is not at all. Maybe Sunway SPK work is too good if being compared. The house floor is not even as in the water flowing i concerned. The water pressure in the master bedroom is extremely low, although there is a bath tub, but when i didn't use the bath tub, basically i have to use another bathroom to shower. Else will be standing too long while just to clean up my hair! Shower can be something tiring when you have the extreme low pressure of water! ;) I can easily list down 20 things to complain about this house!
After all the busy from furnishing the house, this that. I got fully bored with the life in here especially during last week. Without internet for a few days as the cable is not install in this area, YET, (thank god can use the 3G internet access with the mobile modem, but expensive though.) and newly in here, knowing nothing! Awful!
I just got my maid finally(after so long searching in INDONESIA for INDONESIAN maid, hilarious!), and.. i got my job too! :D I am very happy with it. Today was the first day, first class, first teaching. I teach Mandarin in a private college for the PR student. Lovely students with all together 13 in the class. Basically the class mostly conducted in English. Their level just not that bad, impressive! Hope can have more subjects to teach in the coming time.
About my maid, she is divorcing with her husband currently, that's why needed a job. And of course we offered higher than market price for her as we really needed a maid desperately! Everyday she will bring her 4 years old daughter along to work. It is alright for me as the house is just too big for me while he is working. Think working for me considered pretty lucky or not? Morning come in 10am, (i only up by 10am if no class), then home when work all finished (only sweeping, mopping, wiping for everyday job, the rest just randomly), lunch included and Sunday is off day.
Saturday will be barbeque party in my house! Wow.. Can't wait for it. All his colleagues is coming over, finally can fully utilize our garden in the house. Been preparing this for almost a week. Have to think of how to marinade all the meats, seafoods; then starters, deserts, etc. Another drinking night i think, after last week Japanese dinner with so many bottles wine down and then clubbing after. I got real sucks morning the day after! The clubbing here is good actually. Can be compared with KL's!
Come back to myself. Happy that my mum is coming by the end of July. I will meet her up in Jakarta then we go shopping in Bandung and now since Vi cannot make the trip, my mum will come to my house n stay over! I know she wanted to come so much to see my lifestyle here. Can't wait for the Bandung shopping spree! :D
I feel i am so fully grown now. Have to take care for a house, besides the cleanliness, his laundry, all working shirts nicely ironed, i have to think of what to cook for dinner everyday. From morning have to search for recipes in internet, recipe book in order to cook something different everyday. And then have to prepare my groceries shopping list, what to buy, what i wan to cook this week, what is going to finish at home, and blah blah blah. As he said, a good wifey will only need to do groceries shopping once a week. So i want to be that! ;) Of course, keeping track how much i spent in groceries every time! So housewife me now! Finally can understand how's the feeling for handling a family. Fully know how tough my mum used to take care of a family now! Thank you Mum!
I AM GOING BACK TO KL in 2 weeks time! Counting down the day every night. I miss everyone and everything in KL so much! And, also going back to Holland after 2 months! I miss everyone and everything in Holland too. My other home huh.
Will try to post some pictures taken during the Japanese dinner (have to ask from Jan's colleague) and hope this weekend party will get some pictures, and of course pictures with my student!
Monday, 26 May 2008
Banjarmasin
Today is the 3rd day I am in Banjarmasin. I am surviving!
I spent almost 12 hours to traveled from Kuala Lumpur to Banjarmasin. 2 hours advance checked-in, 2 hours flight to Jakarta, 4 hours transit, 2 hours flight to Banjarmasin. The first impression about Indonesia was --> horrible! First the pilot from Garuda Indonesia Airlines to flew to Banjarmasin was GREAT! Never been taken any flight which let me experienced the sudden break "ziiiiiiiiiiiii......" and almost run out from the run way. 2nd when i arrived in the airport, everything was what i expected, small and old as in any domestic airports in any country. But the problem was, i couldn't get the luggage trolley yet there were plenty of trolley available. The person said it was reserved. I have to go out from the luggage room (which mean checked out from the "counter", but there is no custom counter) and then get the trolley and get in back again to pick up my luggages. It should be alright since the security said i am allowed to go back in to pick up my luggage, BUT.. i have no way to get out from the room at all. It was full (when i said full, you can imagine a full crowd, what we have a quote in chinese "people mountain people sea") of people whom came to pick up their friends or relatives i assumed. Thank God i had a lovely man waiting for me outside and managed to SQUEEZED to passed my handbag and lab-top to him and then get back to the room to pick up my luggage with my bare hands!
The rest of it was all back to normal as one of our driver - Andrea was waiting outside and greeted me with a very friendly smile and that cool me down with everything and finally Banjarmasin wasn't that bad.
Here comes to my few days life in here. It isn't that bad, just like Philippine or Thailand like that. Managed to look at my future house - Citra Garden, when i was on my way back to hotel.
According to them, that is the bestest and nicest residential area in here. It is indeed very nice. Too bad still need a few days more to let the owner to get the house ready, still half the garden not clean and planted yet; water heater not installed yet although all the heaters are already there; house not cleaned yet; and the rest are all ready for us to move in. Now i am still living in the hotel here and the hotel is very great. People here are very friendly and the best thing is, unlimited free internet access everywhere in the hotel! Met a few of Jan's colleagues in the hotel in the past 2 days (all his company's staffs are living in this hotel permanently). Staffs from Malaysia (Yes, very happy that there are 2 Malaysians is working in this project), Canada, Indonesia itself, Nepal, Holland. Think that actually gives me a more homey feeling. I am just not alone with my hubby but there are a lot more "family members" in here. So we can full use of the garden in the new house for all the BBQ and party with them.
Now, today is the first day i am alone in this city and hubby is working. Very busy day for him as machines should be arrived and release by custom today, many new crews arrived to be briefed. But i know i can handle all by myself. Yesterday went to the biggest mall in here - Duta Mall to survey the place. Not too bad though (of course can never compare with KL, but good enough to survive) And the impressed thing in the mall was, there have 21 cinemas in it, a lot more than in KL. Bought a dvd player back to hotel so i can watch all the DVDs i "imported" in to spend my time in hotel when hubby working. Think can only have a proper life when the house is ready to move it. Believe by the time i will be busy for some days for the house. All the cleaning, setting, buying for the new house. Can't wait for it.
Will update more about the life here through this lovely invention - Blog!
Wednesday, 7 May 2008
Indonesia VS Malaysia
Time to go to Indonesia is getting nearer. After back from holiday with mum, only 3 days left to prepare and time to leave finally. House in Indonesia is up for him to make final decision to choose it and ticket is confirmed. Feeling is complicated. Very exciting and very nervous indeed. Been doing a lot of research about Indonesia and of course as well as Banjarmasin ( the city where i going to move to). Maybe Banjarmasin just a small city, so can hardly get any information about it and up till this moment i still have very little knowledge and idea about this city where i going to stay. When he was there, he told me i can survive in the city (as i am a total city girl who born and grown up in a country's capital). Anyway, compared with the first time i got the news from him that we might need to go to Banjarmasin, i am getting used to the idea and sort of accepting it and looking forward to it now.
The first reaction when i got the news, i got totally went off with the idea I GOTTA STAY IN SUCH A RURAL PLACE! What is the place named??? I never heard of it in my past 20+ years. I only know Borneo and sort of know Kalimantan. But what is it about Kalimantan? Well, all i know about Indonesia was what.. Jakarta! And of course all my house maids are from Indonesia. That's all. I have to stay there in a few months and i don't know!
After clearing out myself, and accept the fact and i started looking forward to start my adventure life. I don't know how well i can cope with it. But i know i will give the fullest to enjoy and explore it. Of course besides excitement, there are plenty of worries now. Language always the main issue. Yes, i am Malaysian, i speak Bahasa. But the thing is, for all my Indonesian research, i aware Bahasa Indonesian and Bahasa Malaysian is a lot different. For my past 12 years learning Bahasa Malaysian, i can barely understand what is written in most of the article. Maybe like a statement of 10 words out of 50 words. Luckily came to one site to try to find out the difference between it, it mentions :
The first reaction when i got the news, i got totally went off with the idea I GOTTA STAY IN SUCH A RURAL PLACE! What is the place named??? I never heard of it in my past 20+ years. I only know Borneo and sort of know Kalimantan. But what is it about Kalimantan? Well, all i know about Indonesia was what.. Jakarta! And of course all my house maids are from Indonesia. That's all. I have to stay there in a few months and i don't know!
After clearing out myself, and accept the fact and i started looking forward to start my adventure life. I don't know how well i can cope with it. But i know i will give the fullest to enjoy and explore it. Of course besides excitement, there are plenty of worries now. Language always the main issue. Yes, i am Malaysian, i speak Bahasa. But the thing is, for all my Indonesian research, i aware Bahasa Indonesian and Bahasa Malaysian is a lot different. For my past 12 years learning Bahasa Malaysian, i can barely understand what is written in most of the article. Maybe like a statement of 10 words out of 50 words. Luckily came to one site to try to find out the difference between it, it mentions :
Indonesian is virtually the same language as Malay, the latter spoken in Malaysia. The principal difference was in the spelling up until 1972 when the spelling was made the same. The Indonesian system having been developed by the Dutch, the Malay by the British. Thus the Indonesian j is y in Malay (e.g., kaju—wood, Malay: kayu); Indonesian dj is j in Malay (gadjah—elephant, Malay: gajali); Indonesian tj is ch in Malay (kutjing—cat, Malay: kuching); and Indonesian sj is sh in Malay (sjarat—condition, Malay: sharat). The Indonesian plural, like the Malay, is formed by merely repeating the word, as in angan-angan in the poem below, which means "fantasies."
Now i know why i can hardly understand, not because i never pay full attention in Malay class during school time nor i am just too stupid. But because of the DUTCH! After all, it is just not that difficult. Thank God i understand dutch now, but still it is weird though. The combination of Malaysian and Dutch language. Well, interesting!
After the worry of language solved, the next will be spending my 4 hours transit time in Jakarta airport to Banjarmasin. Was trying to search (again!) information about Jakarta Indonesia airport, unfortunately i couldn't get any at all. All i can found is the terminal 1 and terminal 2. Thank god i am flying with Garuda to Banjarmasin, so that mean i will depart from Terminal 2 without transferring to Terminal 1. And with the idea of Terminal 2 is for international flight, i assumed the facilities will be much better and won't be too bad. Imagine, 4 hours!!!! Let's cross your fingers for me please!
About the rest like what can i do, what work i can look for, how is the house like, how is the people like and etc. Think that is not beyond of my area of worry now. So will just save it until i was there. Have to stay wrinkle-free to look young and pretty! Else later hubby complains!
Now i know why i can hardly understand, not because i never pay full attention in Malay class during school time nor i am just too stupid. But because of the DUTCH! After all, it is just not that difficult. Thank God i understand dutch now, but still it is weird though. The combination of Malaysian and Dutch language. Well, interesting!
After the worry of language solved, the next will be spending my 4 hours transit time in Jakarta airport to Banjarmasin. Was trying to search (again!) information about Jakarta Indonesia airport, unfortunately i couldn't get any at all. All i can found is the terminal 1 and terminal 2. Thank god i am flying with Garuda to Banjarmasin, so that mean i will depart from Terminal 2 without transferring to Terminal 1. And with the idea of Terminal 2 is for international flight, i assumed the facilities will be much better and won't be too bad. Imagine, 4 hours!!!! Let's cross your fingers for me please!
About the rest like what can i do, what work i can look for, how is the house like, how is the people like and etc. Think that is not beyond of my area of worry now. So will just save it until i was there. Have to stay wrinkle-free to look young and pretty! Else later hubby complains!
Sunday, 27 April 2008
Leaving
Finally the location is set at Banjarmasin, South Kalimantan. Finally i am officially leaving the country to live together with my man and away from my family. Although still possible to come back as often as i like, for example once a month or so. But, this time is different! I am leaving for the sake of living together and start a family with him (of course no baby in the plan yet, still want to do more diving!) but not like going back to Holland for a month or two and then come back for a month or two and then go again.
A bit surprised that i don't really have any hard feeling or maybe been leaving the home very often, traveling here and there, and know that mum is anytime coming to visit at Banjar or i will go back on and off for the sake of shopping, or ease of boredom or for the business perhaps. But still feels bit sad of course, and in the mean time exciting too (duh!).
It is now another chapter again for our life. With a lot of hope and believe that we can make it pretty well. Maybe from the way of living together and traveling together gives the confident to me. People always say: Travel together is the best way to judge how well a couple can live together. In fact we both enjoyed travel together a lot and we had plenty of fun. Kinda looking forwards it, wondering how is the place look like; how will our house like; what will i do there; what kind of friends can i make there; how much will i enjoy there; and of course the dream coming true finally for living together with him. Been 3 years, all plans kept changing and all sort of disappointments. The harder to get it, the more you appreciate it! Isn't?
About friends... When the time he was in KL, he kept asking me to go out with all my friends. He said why i don't like to go out and hang around with all my friends anymore. Past time i meet them like almost every alternate day, but why not now anymore? I think the reason we don't hang out as often as last time is because.. people keep grows! When we grows, our lifestyle keep changes aligned. Now there is the busy with dating and marrying, there is the busy with work, there is the busy with struggling life decision, and there is the busy with everything forever. When everyone has their own business to busy about, and that caused the possibility of scheduling time together is lowered. So, that is why we don't meet as often as last time anymore.
Glad to see everyone grows to a better way. Finally she is marrying to someone who is really good and nice; finally she is fully dedicated herself to the work; finally she know what is what she need to do and search for her future happiness and commitments and willing to let go of her current life; but lastly, she was the most dedicated person to her life but she became the most lost in her live. She used to has the mission and vision in her life, but because of someone who abandoned all her dedication, she loosed all her time and lost herself. Hope she can find back herself in the soonest time. God bless!
And same goes to me, i grown and i found the destination in the 3rd chapter of my life. I am very happy with it and i know my family happy with it very much too. He is the one and he is all i was looking. Thank you!
A bit surprised that i don't really have any hard feeling or maybe been leaving the home very often, traveling here and there, and know that mum is anytime coming to visit at Banjar or i will go back on and off for the sake of shopping, or ease of boredom or for the business perhaps. But still feels bit sad of course, and in the mean time exciting too (duh!).
It is now another chapter again for our life. With a lot of hope and believe that we can make it pretty well. Maybe from the way of living together and traveling together gives the confident to me. People always say: Travel together is the best way to judge how well a couple can live together. In fact we both enjoyed travel together a lot and we had plenty of fun. Kinda looking forwards it, wondering how is the place look like; how will our house like; what will i do there; what kind of friends can i make there; how much will i enjoy there; and of course the dream coming true finally for living together with him. Been 3 years, all plans kept changing and all sort of disappointments. The harder to get it, the more you appreciate it! Isn't?
About friends... When the time he was in KL, he kept asking me to go out with all my friends. He said why i don't like to go out and hang around with all my friends anymore. Past time i meet them like almost every alternate day, but why not now anymore? I think the reason we don't hang out as often as last time is because.. people keep grows! When we grows, our lifestyle keep changes aligned. Now there is the busy with dating and marrying, there is the busy with work, there is the busy with struggling life decision, and there is the busy with everything forever. When everyone has their own business to busy about, and that caused the possibility of scheduling time together is lowered. So, that is why we don't meet as often as last time anymore.
Glad to see everyone grows to a better way. Finally she is marrying to someone who is really good and nice; finally she is fully dedicated herself to the work; finally she know what is what she need to do and search for her future happiness and commitments and willing to let go of her current life; but lastly, she was the most dedicated person to her life but she became the most lost in her live. She used to has the mission and vision in her life, but because of someone who abandoned all her dedication, she loosed all her time and lost herself. Hope she can find back herself in the soonest time. God bless!
And same goes to me, i grown and i found the destination in the 3rd chapter of my life. I am very happy with it and i know my family happy with it very much too. He is the one and he is all i was looking. Thank you!
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