Appreciation

Past few days was spending quite some quality time with two new friends i met in my dutch class. One was the exchange student from Japan for her Master degree thesis "Education in Netherlands" also the first Japanese exchange student in NL in her faculty, and the other one was Phd. holder in Literature from Cambridge as well as the Professor in University Utrecht. We talked a lot of things, from crap, to life as an Asian living in the European Country, to the politics, and etc etc. It was really a very quality 2 days we spent together. I really enjoyed the talk with them. They gave me the feeling to feel that i am me again after being out from the "society" so long. Or maybe i make myself feel that i had been left out since being jobless for so long, but good to know that i am still in "it".

Since living here and started my dutch class, i really enjoy making friends from around the world and shares our cultures with each other as well as sharing the thoughts. Maybe being alone as a foreigner in a foreign country will allows each other to click with each other easily. I always feel good when a group of us sitting by the terrace, drinking, chatting and having fun with each other where that table actually consists of the local, the nearby European countries, America, middle east, til SEA nationalities. Yet still in harmony and in fact a lot of fun in it.



That sometimes give me a lot of thought, why there is still war? Why what is happening in XinJiang or Israel now is still occurs? Maybe if there is more people with a little bit more generous and trying to be more understanding as well as giving a little bit more respect to each other, this world will be better.



Anyway, leave that aside, imagine if i am still living in my home country, what improvement in life will I be now? Interesting..

Summer 2009

What a special summer!

Lately too many of my friends having problem with their life. Not small problem, but real big problem.

Just not long ago, maybe days ago heard one of the friend got a job and that job actually kinda help to solve her fiancee financial problem, was indeed very happy for her and of course after the problem arousing her for quite sometimes, she is all back to the happy and full of crap girl again.

I was very tired last night, first of all, a Japanese friend of mine suddenly kick out by student house personel and was so lost and helpless. And Jan was trying to call up the student house to ask for exception for a pity lonely Japanese in NL but still not acceptable. Finally arranged everything for her and fixed a date and time to pick her up from student house and come to my house to stay till she back. I am very sad for her that she was thinking to spend a little bit longer time in NL before she has to back to Japan, but all these heartless personel make her has to change the flight ticket date to go back almost 3 weeks earlier, what a last "good" impression they gave i was thinking! Anyway, it is good that now her problem is solved though. At least one friend's problem is delisted from my list.

But happy thing seems do not last long in this beginning of summer. Just not more than a minute i was happily thought problem solved, another worse shock came to me. A very very close friend told me, early in the morning, she is leaving her husband! She was MIA for weeks from all of her friends which is not really her things, but due to the summer holiday was approaching and everybody busy finishing the assignments, included she, just thought she was really complete drowned with assignments. although normally she won't be too keen working so hard on her work... a girl that is so independent, strong, confident all the time, suddenly told you that she is completely fxucked up herself, that really scared my axx off with plenty plenty of worries. The more she told me about herself, the more worry it came in me. When the moment i saw she was completely collapsed, lost and helpless, my heart was bleeding and tears was in my heart. I couldn't allow myself to be weak in front of her for a second moment, because she need someone there to be with her and to guide her as well as to consult her. I was glad that she was feeling better and more aware of what she should do and talk to her husband before i leave her. And all the worries was in me the entire evening. But relieved to heard she had a very calm and good talk with her husband and her husband being very supportive and positive with what she want of being alone for a short while.

This morning the first thing came into my mind was how is this friend doing now? Quickly get all the things i supposed to complete in the morning done, and just can't wait to rush to her to assure she is alright with everything. I must say i was so happy for what i seen today from her. I have all the faith and positive that this marriage is going to work out great again very soon! BUT..... again happy thing never last long in this beginning of summer.

Another message came in, same as just the relief of a problem of friend solved, after maybe not even one minute, another friend said her husband just walked out from the 9 years marriage! I am completely burn out now from all the none stop problems happened in my friends! I hope there is no more coming in after this! I feel very very sad to see these happened on my friends. Please.. really no more! This summer holiday supposed to be a boring holiday for me before i back to my home country.. although i know i complaint about how am i going to pass through this boring holiday, and now i rather to get back the boring holiday instead of all the drama happens in my friends!